Why does it hurt so much to love me? You feel like a little spider trapped in the web and you struggle against it. It's cognitive dissonance. You want to be mine, to be important in my life, to feel cherised and desired.. But you know that I won't, that you're one of many and aren't special enough to have that personal connection. But you can't stop being obsessed, being totally in love, being full of desire. It's this pain that makes me happy, you see. I want you to feel this way.. rejected and in need. This is why it hurts.